Journey Delayed Due to an Inclement Life

My definition of being lost is not knowing how you got  where you are, and how to get to where you want to be. That is where I found myself over ten years ago –lost. Oh, I knew that I was making some wrong and some bad turns, so, I can’t completely say that I didn’t know how I got  where I was. But, I’m the victim here, so I don’t have to take responsibility for my part in this, yet.

Just to remind you, or if you are just catching up, these are the circumstances that I am speaking of. In August, 2004, I gave up on trying to keep my business open any longer after a 14 year -successful run. The man whom I was married to walked out two months later (mmm, I wonder if there was a connection). Oh, yes, and I lost my dad in that in-between month. Over the next 16 months, I faced a foreclosure (make that two), and my car being repossessed. In essence, I went from being a wife, daughter, well-known business owner, real estate owner, to a single, orphaned, homeless, unemployed – what? I didn’t know. Discovery.

One of the things they say about being lost is that the chances of being found are better if you stay put where you are. God must have come up with that saying, though I can’t find it in the Bible, but that is just what He had me to do. And I know it had to be Him because for years my prayer was for Him to order my steps. But He wasn’t giving me any instructions or directions.

So, day after day, I was lost and stuck. My daily routine was to get up, do those daily things that we all do and then what? I had been self-employed for fourteen years and employed by the government for fourteen years before that, and guess what? The rules for job hunting had changed. It was all computerized, so I couldn’t even go out and knock on doors to look for a job. And to make matters worse, I didn’t have an employment reference for fourteen years, except myself. For all anybody knew, I had been serving time at Attica for the last fourteen years.

So, what does one do when it seems there is nothing to do? My daily routine was to sit in the corner in my white Queen Anne’s chair; a cup of tea, my Bible and praise music. My favorite daily scripture during those days was Psalm 5, where I asked God to hear my voice every morning. The Father also had me to spend more time than I cared to in Matthew 5, about praying for those who despitefully use you. Man was that hard, but I kept at it. I enjoyed reading Romans 12:19, where God told me that vengeance was His and that He would repay. That meant that He was on my side, and “woe” was gonna be on somebody, and I liked that part.

Some of those scriptures that I had preached and taught, I now had to put to the test. Would He really “supply all my needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus”? Was He really going to add all the things that I needed, if I “seek first His kingdom and His righteousness”? There was so much that I had to learn. Over the next year while I sat and waited, and waited and cried, and cried and prayed, the answers would come.

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10 Responses to Journey Delayed Due to an Inclement Life

  1. Shery Grubbs Barnes says:

    Reminder that God is a promise keeper. Your faith was being tested and you passed the test. Great testimony.


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  3. Reblogged this on A Dogs Many Medical Maladies and commented:
    I can hear this woman’s woe and discomfort as if she were in my connected bedroom today; I have been lost for so long now and praying for retrieval by someone; hopefully God because He was so much more likely able to help me in mind, body, and spirit. But I still wait. There are days and moments of clarity, times when I think “OK, this has got to be the moment when things are changing” but no; then things come to a screeching halt. I just keep asking, keep praying. I had hoped that the comfort He promised me, if I asked, would have come by now. I still have faith because I know that without faith, all works are dead. I trust that He will be along when He is good and ready. Thank you for your inspiration; I needed it today.


    • Cille says:

      Hi renemiller012058. Thank you for stopping by and taking the time to leave a comment. I believe that one of the reasons God has us to write and share our journey is because there are others on the same or similar journey and any insights, warnings or forecasts that we can share brightens the path for path for someone else. Keep on asking and praying and when you least expect it; in a way that you cannot imagine, God will come through for you. Stay tuned as I share in the coming days how He did it for me. I’m praying for you.

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  4. Lost…that defines it. There are times when no other word fits my life. It often feels robotic. This is a lovely piece of encoragement. Thank you

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    • Cille says:

      Hi Just Bits and Pieces. Thank you for taking the time to stop by and leave your comments. I’m thrilled that I could provide some encouraging words for you. Blessings.

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